My Inner GOOD vs Evil

I would like to think that people have mostly good in them, but I know that’s not the case…

I’ve been distracted a little bit with some personal matters at home, but I am keeping my head high, not only playing by the rules – but being considerate about a lot of things that most people would NEVER consider.

MOVING ON….           

This week has been somewhat of a tough week. I had tests for two different classes and really getting my feet wet with a speech class. I was hoping I would do better on a Government test than I did, but I think it had something to do with all my distractions. I still pulled a B out from the test, but wished for better. I’m sure the next one will be better. I still am waiting for the test grade for my World Civilization class {crossing my fingers for good luck!}.

Speech Class is going well. It’s only a beginner’s course for public speaking, but it is nice to start from the basics. I feel like if there is room to improve it’s good to go to the basics to break down what you can do and what you ARE doing. I’ve picked up a lot of good advice from the course. We have reviewed some famous speeches and broke them down to see how we can improve speaking in an audience. We have also started impromptu speeches. I thought it would be harder than what it is. I’m awful right now with “fillers”. I catch myself saying “UM” more than I would like. Not for long – I plan to REALLY work on that. That is a BIG BIGGIE, I think, that I have NO choice but to fix. Otherwise, I think I’m pretty good. Not to toot my own horn, but… TOOT TOOT!

 I have recently been debating if I should stay with the Communications career or Criminal Justice. I am dual majored with both. After speaking with my speech instructor I think I have absolutely decided to stick with the Communications. I want to be a part of something that I enjoy; I do not see myself as a policeman or a corrections officer… I don’t think I’m “hard-nose” enough for a job like that. I want to be a part of something, not feel like I need a power trip controlling people.

Graduate Walk

             So last night I graduated, well walked anyway. I was given the opportunity to walk with my graduating class early since I only had one quarter left at my college. It was super nice of the school to let us students who are in our position do that. I couldn’t imagine not graduating with my friends I’ve been in the same classes with for two years. I’m very happy with everything in my life right now. I feel like I’m in a good place with good people and good surroundings. It’s really funny to see me with all the people in my program of study. They call me their “token white person”. It’s ok though, I enjoy them so much, and I can be the token white person for them if they really need one. HAHA! One of my close friends that were in my degree program, Sasha, was really making it exciting to graduate. I was trying to keep myself calm and nonchalant about the whole thing, but just by the way she was acting it reminded me how special and important graduation is! I didn’t get to walk across the stage for my graduation in high school, neither did my brother. We graduated; we just didn’t get to participate in the ceremonies for one reason or another. The fact that my mother was a TEACHER at the high school we went to really made me feel awful about it too. As cheesy as it was I told my mom that I was going to walk this time, even if it was just for an Associate’s degree – I wanted to make up for my high school graduation.

The reason I wasn’t able to walk in high school is because I was sick so much in high school I missed too many classes to get my work made up and had to take some extra classes in the summer. I had cervical cancer, which would at times put me on the floor making me so sick. It was crazy because my school actually had a program that you could enter if you had some sort of serious illness that you could graduate with everyone else, I didn’t get to be a part of that program because I didn’t miss enough days for it. Go figure. Now that I think about it, my mom took it a lot harder than I did though. I had in mind that it was no big deal and a few surgeries here and there and I’ll be good as new. She (which she didn’t think I knew at the time) was just so scared that something was wrong with her daughter. She’s one of those people who just don’t get scared – of anything! She’s strong and motivated about everything. She wasn’t going to show me how scared she was, I think it’s a coping skill she has acquired throughout her life. If something bad happens she just keeps on going on with her normal everyday life because it’s not important enough to stop her from achieving her goals or taking care of her family. Oddly enough November of 2010 she found out she had breast cancer. This time it was the other way around; I was a nervous wreck and she acted like it was no big deal. She just knew a couple surgeries would happen and she’d be good as new – sound familiar? One of the things (and I’ll never forget this) she said to the Dr. when they told her was, “Are you sure you’re looking at the right chart?” She was just convinced that they had obviously made a mistake and picked up the person’s chart from the next room. But there was no mistake; she had breast cancer. I tell people all the time that unless I told you that she had cancer – you’d never know. She never once acted like there was anything wrong with her or rarely needed help with anything. She wasn’t going to stop what she was doing “just because she had cancer”. She isn’t like that, and she’ll never change. I love it, I love her. I would like to think that I am as strong as her and stay strong all the time. I hope she knows how proud I am of her and couldn’t imagine having anyone else but her in my life as my mom!

Well, it’s off to government class, hope there are no riots going to break out – wish me luck!

First Day in Business!

So first day blogging! Never blogged before, not sure how it's suppose to go. So I'm just going to give it my best shot! I welcome any followers to give me tips to get the - shall we say - "biggest bang for my buck"!

I guess the best way to start off is to describe myself and why I'll be blogging. I'd like to say I'm the "average" 24 year old, but I doubt it... common but most likely not average. I just turned 24 at the end of May and I have a 2 year old son and a husband.

 I'm also enrolled in college (graduating in the next month or so) with kids right out of high school. Well, not all of them - but a lot of them. Some students I have in my classes are like me. They ("the man") calls us "Non-Traditional Students". All that means is we started a life before we went to college. It can get pretty interesting all around. I'm blogging as one of the requirements for my Mass Media course, but I think I might start enjoying it!

Today one of the classes I had was American Government. So guess what we talk about... Politics. So guess what happens.... you guessed it - a bunch of crazy right-out-of-high-school students who you would think were the founders of the government! Or who just KNOW they know WAAAY more than everyone else about how the government should work. Now, I'm not saying you should be a political zombie - however... research is required when it comes to finding out where you stand and what should be done to fix what you don't like. Also, I would like you to research if your "conflict resolution" been used in the past and if it succeeded back then please... thanks so much. The topic of politics has reared it's ugly head in 'ol Georgia and there was quite a disturbance which I'm sure radiated through the school. Ok, so I like a passionate debate just as much as the next guy, but passionate - not psycotic... Take a breath gentlemen... I just don't agree with what you think, that doesn't mean I'm comming for you in your sleep just because we don't see eye to eye on the Patriot's Act. You don't have to use intimidation tactics to get me to think the way you do... remember - I have a husband and a two year old. That's going to be quite a task to try and get me to "join the dark side".

So parallel to the miniscule political riots in Government, there is a guy in there that sits behind me. I REALLY want one of my girlfriends (who also goes to school with me) to date. I'm somewhat of a self-proclaimed match maker... sometimes I'm good at it, sometimes - not so much. My husband hates that I try and set people up. I can't help it. I can see two strangers and think "I wish they would date...". I do it with all my friends too, and they know it. Because I'm sure I've tried to set them up with the other person I was thinking of for them. Sometimes it's just down right hillarious! I live in a smaller town than normal so when I mentioned to one of my friends the person who I saw her with turned out to be her cousin of somesort. Ooops... yea, like I said, sometimes I'm not the greatest. My husband, "Hollywood", gets nervous when I do stuff like that, especially when it's with someone I don't know or hardly know - like the guy in my class. He's been through some rough times where people have been VERY dirty about things. He's also seen a lot of shady people do some really shady things to other people. He is really protective of himself and his family. I can't blame him for always expecting the worst out of situations, because he's often had the short end of the stick. We're working on his optimism. Anyway, I haven't said anything to the guy behind me about my friend - although I think they are PERFECT for eachother, since my husband is a little nervous about it. I'm going to eventually because I think they should meet and date! Whatever - it's my nature. We'll see how that conversation goes. Heck, it might end early with a "Sorry, I'm married". Hope not! But you never know now 'a days!

Well, I'll check in soon!

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